13 September 2014

ajal maut di tangan tuhan

bismillah...

assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

so do here i am.

begin with the kalimah of Allah is much better.
The Almighty.

Allahu.

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i lost my dad and so do my bestfriend on the same year. So i keep thinking, why this year is really really tough for me eh? i lost two people that i love the most. two people who keep spending their time with me.

last 20th February 2014, i lost my love. the time brought me to the unexpected tragedy that i never imagine. it took a long period that i need to realize that i lost him.

it was quite tough for me so do my family especially my mommy. susah la nak terima yang ayah sendiri takda depan mata. Abah dulu la yang manage segala hal rumah. Anak anak mintak apa semuanya ditunaikan. He was a quite man. never scold his kids.

Abah, i am the lucky one because i had give you a happiness on my successful in PMR. yahh,two months after, pada hari yang sama abah disahkan menghidap stroke dan malam tu, aku sempat jumpa Abah only for two hours. i arrived there and i saw some machines around Abah's bed.

and i can see Mommys's tears.

abah,I love you.







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UMMI FARHAH BT MOHAMAD AZHAR

allahu.she is my dear bestfriend. ya, one of my favourite friends. a doctor, a great motivater, a mommy and a good, a student who is staying at hostel like me for sure la will spend their time more at their hostel than their home.

so for this year, ummi memang aktif. ummi masuk mcm2 jenis sukan. so ummi rumah Khaibar sama dengan aku.so evrywhere i go for sure with her la.

and i remember, how ummi came to me in the midnight.waktu tu aku dengan farhana dok atas katil menyembang sambil baring. fuhhhh agak menyengat ahhh sebab waktu tu semua pakat dah tidur. and just two of us left. ummi panjat katil aku tetiba and i was like

UMMMMMMIIIIIIII TERKEJUT TAU DAKKKKK!!!!

but for ummi, she never care what people said or scold to her. And ummi still with her annoyed face. like usually, she will request me to sing one of her favorite song, terbang tunduk by fynn jamal,
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even she know how my voice look is -,-

Ummi,

listen to my heart.

i ws never imagine that you will leave us here. it was never supposed to be. Allah loves you more that us do. your smile when i visited you for the last will i keep in deep of my heart. even waktu tu hang dah tak senyum kat aku, hang dah terbaring kaku atas katil, tapi hang tetap senyum, aku cium hang lama, and i feel you never care cause you already see your place there, Jannah..your voice. Allah, its really tough for me to accept.

i do admit, i need to be strong so do i will hide my tears in front of your mom. let the day be remembered.

may Allah keeps us in His blesiings. Ameen






























love.